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No Bird, No Worm

I have been getting up at 4 am for years now. It was a mindset I had to be in when I was going to college and needed to get my homework done before I went to work for the day.

But now, I’m questioning it.

Yesterday I came home from work early because I was suddenly sick at my stomach and I felt “off”. I was dizzy, and the muscles in my chest hurt. I had come home and I laid like broccoli on the couch for the rest of the day.

This morning, my coffee is questionable. I know this is stress. Or grief because I am really missing my dad this last few days. April 12th was exactly 8 months since he’s been gone. 8 months. And all of the things that have come up, that I have questioned, he would have had an answer.

But he’s not here.

I question everything lately. And I am without answer. Maybe I am not suppose to have an answer or maybe I am not ready to hear the answer. Either way, I’m unsettled with many things and I’m annoyed.

This pattern needs to be broken. I have been locked into this weird transition of life and I can’t find the key.

I’ve graduated, why am I still getting up so early? It’s exhausting. My father has passed away, why do I still seek answers from him? He’s never coming back.

I need to slow it down. Why do I allow little things I cannot control, control me? Control my emotions? My behavior?

Unacceptable.

I need to seek life again and breathe it in. Focus, and take control.

The early bird does not get the worm. The early bird simply gets a first glance of the day. A bird’s eye view, no doubt.

The worms are still sleeping.

Quote by Winston Churchill

One Reply to “No Bird, No Worm”

  1. “The early bird does not get the worm. The early bird simply gets a first glance of the day. A bird’s eye view, no doubt. The worms are still sleeping.”

    Dang, I’ve never thought of it like that.

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