I’m so glad tomorrow is Friday. This week has been awful…for a variety of reasons, both personally and work related.
It’s funny how our minds work. We plan, make lists, work and play with hope all will go as we originally thought out. But when a wrench is thrown into our grinding gears, all hell breaks loose and our brains get scrambled.
And how does one fix it?
And how does one cope?
This morning I landed the weight of my body at my desk early. Slamming into my chair with a heavy sigh. My list waiting. My computer turned on and I’m staring at my emails. Then my list. Then back to my emails. My mind exhausted. Where to start?
I opened up a dark chocolate bar.
Yes I did. 7:30 am. That is where I started. And I didn’t feel guilty until later.
I look at my peace cranes. I find these little cranes all over my work place. A gesture of peace, kindness, love. I have a few in my office. I love finding these little origami cranes…I know who makes them, and I always know when she has been through the building.
And I love them.
Tonight after dinner my husband and I went for a walk. Then I took a shower and stood on the scale. I shouldn’t have eaten that chocolate bar, or had the glass of wine with dinner tonight. Or dinner for that matter.
I am just simply exhausted. It will get better. It will. We have been here before and this too shall pass. It just takes time.
The stress has given me a new stage of flab around my mid section.
A little more investment in myself is a quick fix for a mood boost. Both cosmetically and physically. And maybe some fresh flowers in our home. And in my car too!
I can get through this…I will conquer!
Now if someone can please just provide the much needed sunshine.