I was Netflix binging today, not something I normally do, but it was much needed…today. My son was in his room, all day listening to music. Then one song caught my attention in the middle of an intense scene of Greenleaf.
I’ve heard this song before but couldn’t put my finger on it. But the singer was not the original singer. I finally get up from the couch when the series ended and asked my son who he was listening to. He starts naming the last few bands then I realized, both the song and band. He replayed it for me. I cried. He paced.
See, the original Simon & Garfunkel song, The Sound of Silence is remarkable. Yet, the meaning behind the song is a mystery with many having their own ideas of its origin. But the band Disturbed, turns The Sound of Silence from a 1964 remarkable song, into modern, emotionally stunning and breathtaking piece of music. My emotions, tears, swallowed me whole.
Have you ever been in silence? I am not speaking of meditation, or a quiet room or an early morning snow fall. I am speaking of the feeling of isolation. The feeling of being alone. The feeling of speaking but never being heard. The feeling of being left out, unintended, or the feeling of being left behind. It’s like a road that ends, without purpose.
We all have experienced it. Some more than others, some everyday. It’s a silence that reaches in, tightens our hearts, squeezes every inch of breath out of our lungs, and rips our souls right out from underneath us. And most of us don’t notice it in ourselves because it becomes a way of life, or we choose not to share our silence. Most of us don’t notice it in others because we are too wrapped up in our own insignificant standards of living or we choose NOT to notice. And I pity those who choose not to notice. I have seen it all too many times over the course of my years, of those who choose not to notice, are those who wake up to find themselves alone, and die alone, and it is sad to watch.
For myself, I notice. I notice others. Every little smirk, wince, or tear and I have found by reaching out to simply listen, compliment or to say, “how are you… really” has eased the hearts of others and broken that sheet of silence. It helps others feel they have significance or purpose to continue in their day, or lives. It is the most emotionally draining thing to do. But to break the silence another person is feeling, is worth all the noise. Think about it. You could be the very person who saves a life. A soul.