Are you ever been engulfed by life? I have. When I am stressed, overwhelmed, or sad, I dream. When I dream, the dreams are WAY out there, maybe even nightmares. So to release the stress, I draw my dreams. When I was in community college, I was working full time, going to school full time and taking care of my family. I was seriously stressed. I continued this pattern for 7 years until I graduated with my Masters degree.
During that time, I had crazy vivid dreams. So I decided to start drawing them. I laughed, I cried. In my defense, I was left unsupervised. This drawing of charcoal and pencil, I called Binge and Purge. Little did I know, in 2012 it would land me in an Arts, Music and Literary magazine for a 2nd place award winner. This was the first time in my life I had won anything. I was humbled, and shocked.
I would love to be able to tell you all the things that were going on in my life at the time; but I won’t. I admit, when I look at it, it makes me cry. It’s my husband’s favorite out of all of my artwork. It is seriously deep and seriously personal – even he does not understand.
By studying this image, you could probably gain a sense of some of it. You may even assume what was going on. And this is okay. You may see the pain, the peace, the loss. It was a part of my life and I cannot erase it. I have moved on. Have I learned from it? I’m not confident I have. Will it always be with me? You bet it will.