Here it is again, 3 am and I’m wide awake. I don’t know what woke me, I’m thinking it was when my husband got out of bed.
I was hoping to fall back asleep but my mind flooded with all of the things I want to do. Why now? Can’t this wait until 5 or 6 am? It’s my day off, and I want to sleep. I laid here for a few minutes and finally gave in to the smell of coffee brewing.
I’ve had this mental bucket list for years. It is not long, but long enough that I should really start writing this stuff down. I’ve mentally crossed off a few things, including things that weren’t even a part of my list, but they were things I wanted to experience, but not 5-star rating deserving experiences to be on my bucket list; such as jury duty. I have experienced it, it was not pleasant at the least, I do not want to do it again, but I can cross it off my unintentional experiences bucket list.
At the top of my list was earning a Master’s degree. For years I said I couldn’t do it because I did not have the faith in myself. I honestly did not think I was smart enough, because school was not my thing. After earning a Bachelor’s degree though, praying and losing many nights of sleep determining if I wanted to take the leap and go for my Masters, I finally took the plunge. I knew it would be hard, I was working full time and I wanted to earn this full time and get it over with. And I did it. Two years of intense focus, exhaustion and many tantrums later, in 2017 I graduated with my Master’s degree with honors. I didn’t know what I was going to do with it at the time but I was so proud of myself. Crossed it off my bucket list!
No matter how big or small, I believe having a bucket list gives us purpose. It gives us the opportunity to be driven and focused and to push ourselves to our limits.
So what’s next? Swim with stingrays? Zip lining? Stand-up paddle boarding? Those are just a few that are on my list. Some a little more extreme than others and I am not getting any younger. But if my 80 year old father-in-law can sky dive and live through it, then I’m sure my 45 year old body can handle zip lining.
What’s on your list?